Colorful/ Colorless

我想最近情绪是有点被牵动,时而情绪化,有点神经质, 这才是原本的我.

以前的我,在面对不开心时,只会想到用酒精来暂时逃避和释放.

可,近期我尝试了吸水烟.

第一次只为了好奇心, 原以为没第二次了,

原来只是骗自己,它其实蛮吸引着我,尤其是那水果香味.

可是下次我还会把它当成一种解压的方式吗?应该不会吧?

我先声明,我只是玩玩而已....很好玩? 对....-.-

这是新买的一本书, 比天堂更美好的地方,就在人间.

喜欢里面的内容,透过101则小故事,不断引导我脑袋去思考各种与个中含义.

所以才又回到书局去把它买下.

现在有三本书在等着我呐...

朋友在两个星期后要结婚了

想穿长裙出席,应该买新衣呢还是找找衣橱里有什么可以变一变的呢?

懊恼

要不要找工作好呢?

懊恼

星期日早上和家人在DANG WANGI 附近的一间KOPITIAM的早餐

不要看它外相,其实很好吃,也很多顾客!!!

还有其他好吃的呢!!!

姐妹,走!! 找一天我带你们去吃!!!

哭!!!

想看电影!!! BLACK SWAN!!! 我要看 =(

姐妹看了,还愿意陪我看吗? 嗬嗬

这个月开始很多演唱会 怎么这样啊

我要看ah mi 和 bruno mars也想看小猪,感受下他现场劲歌热舞的气氛 

通通只能等晚上做梦吧 @@

哈哈

来个乱的

新鞋漂亮吗?

PS : 雷公出现了,要闪!!!

From me and it's for you.

Okay, I've waited this moment for so long!!
First, I would like to say, ANGELA GAN, please pay fully attention to this post!!
I dedicate this post especially just for you.
I am sorry for not attending the birthday celebration.
And since I'd planned to make a video for you before your birthday
but things went not as smooth as it supposed to be.
And for some incident I delayed the video editing part.
Till the days after your birthday I decided to make it again.
It takes me two days to edit it and 2 days to upload it.
Like so hard, seriously! I mean the time waiting it to be uploaded was turn me out of patient.
ARGH! Babe! I did it for you! <3

*Here to mention first, although it's really late ( for one week ) sorry. =( I hope you like it, just as simple as it is, it is my little baby that I first time made for a friend, no any excellent editing skills but it's a sincere and belated gift for you.* 

Before you watch it, put your headphone/earphone on. =)




PS : Thanks to those who involved in this video. :) Got to sleep!! It's 2.04 am now!! 

Randomly.

20/2/20

Attend wedding dinner at Bukit Jalil.

Nothing much. That day wasn't really into the mood and randomly picked the clothes for it.

Suprisingly I got myself a new look overall of the outfit. 

Keep it up. 

Dinner was held in the ballroom.

Everyone was gathered together at uncle's house after the dinner

just to have a look to the new born baby girl, she's pretty baby. =)

Feel so warm cos all the 'youngs' and 'olds' are there except another 3 cousins.

Yeah, I should keep this up, everything I mean. CHEERS!

Secret

*KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK*

累惨了. 昨天去当临时演员,我的妈呀, 脚皮都被磨破了, 现在都贴着plaster.
还能说什么, 不能抱怨啊, 就为了那几十块, 还有那一点点经验.

最近你好吗 他...好吗？ 我好吗？
大家好吗？

新年期间我很快乐, 家里很热闹, 都变成赌城了,朋友都常常出现在我家, 聚在一块.
不然就是和他们出去, 所以都没时间上来.

记得有个星期一吧, 和家人去马六甲一趟,回来还食物中毒, 上吐下泻不停, 搞得我怕怕.
但好处是可以瘦身, 至少去到学校, 大家都问我怎么瘦了, 嗬嗬.

在你很忙很忙, 把自己的时间填的满满, 让自己投入快乐的心情的时候, 我发现, 在停下脚步的那一刻, 那个空虚感也许还是会来临, 记忆会从脑海里溢出, 虽然不像当初那么深, 可是始终还有个烙印在那, 提醒你是谁留下的. 我停下来一会儿, 在想最近你好吗...

我是女生, 所以总在想女生很脆弱, 不要伤害我们. 但感情问题总是个懊恼的问题, 请问男生也会像女生那样脆弱般吗？你们有像女生那样, 久久不能抽离吗？说爱, 是有多爱啊？
朋友啊, 你的心在淌血, 你的眼在流泪, 我相信时间过了, 你就会慢慢愈合. 我明白不容易, 因为我领悟了, 但这段时间我们都会一直在一起, 就让我们疯狂的度过吧, 像从前那样.

看了电影, 听了音乐, 读了文章
这些都是牵引着我的心的毒药, 上了隐, 对它既爱也恨.
唯一能够把自己从中回到正轨就要看我自己的造化了.

我自己有个‘秘密花园’, 那是个没有人知道的地方, 我唯一能真正抒写心情, 不开心时候的小小地方. 你呢？你有个秘密花园吗？

100211

你见，或者不见我

我就在那里

不悲不喜

你念，或者不念我

情就在那里

不来不去

你爱，或者不爱我

爱就在那里

不增不减

你跟，或者不跟我

我的手就在你手里

不舍不弃

来我的怀里

或者 让我住进你的心里

默然 相爱

寂静 欢喜 


这是非诚勿扰2里小女孩念给即将离开人间的爸爸李香山的一首诗,那个画面特别感动 ♥

原来这首诗是一个三百年前诗人作的一首诗, 仓央嘉措-《见与不见》
而片尾曲《最好不相见》也改编自他的《十诫诗》





《最好不相见》
曲：栾树 词：仓央嘉措 演唱：李漠

最好不相见，便可不相恋。

最好不相知，便可不相思。

最好不相伴，便可不相欠。

最好不相惜，便可不相忆。

最好不相爱，便可不相弃。

最好不相对，便可不相会。

最好不相误，便可不相负。

最好不相许，便可不相续。

但曾相见便相知，相见何如不见时。

安得与君相诀绝，免教生死作相思。

最好不相见，便可不相恋。

最好不相知，便可不相思。

最好不相伴，便可不相欠。

最好不相惜，便可不相忆。

最好不相依，便可不相偎。

最好不相遇，便可不相聚。

Music

Awww I'm listening to Christina Perri and Late Night Alumni's song lately.
Their song are going through this Chinese New Year with me, no Dong Dong Qiang!!
Escpecially Late Night Alumni's song are so peacefully, I love it!
It wont make me feel depress or hype up, it makes me stay calm.

Christina Perri. I read her bio. I find her is special in some way.
Go read it.  Christina Perri's Bio

The latest single of Late Night Alumni, It's not happening.
You'll be enjoying listen to them. Well, at least for me, it does.

But I'm gonna show Jar of Heart by Christina Perri. 

I found this song through facebook and I love it after listen to it.

Perri feels that "Jar of Hearts" has connected because, "on a basic level, everyone has had this experience with a person who broke their heart. I'm just telling my story in a very real and direct way. This kind of slapped the crap out of everyone's hearts.' - Christina Perri.

PS : Happy Chinese New Year Eve. 

My life

I had enough I don't know why I rotated this picture but ended up when I uploaded to here it is still like this!
Just let it be!

I have been thinking about my life now since I got questioned about what do I do in my usual time.
So I would tell since I'm having my holiday, I sleep, I eat, I drink, I pee and poo, and mostly I face computer all the time. Just like everyone, FACEBOOK all the time. I also do blogging about my thoughts and feelings.

Other than that, I really don't know what I do or what I can do.
I had think about work for some part time job but I can only work for one month time long even my mum also asked about what for you work for only one month? Yea, I kind of agree with her. But the exception will be if I've got my own transport I only willing go for work. Frankly, I'm sick of taking public transport so if you're asking me to out I would take days to consider about it. I will only take public transport if college reopen. That's just me, a very hardworking student. HAHA. No jokes.

I do reading books but rarely. I love reading blog more than book. I concentrate on blog easily more than book. I've no idea why. Recently, I just love to read the lyric of every song indeed I'm impressed by those meanings within the song. It expressed out my feeling. Also not forgetting about blog, I found out Le Love.
Through reading their post, I feel that everyone has the same love problem it's just the different person around. And nowadays I've been relying on these quotes from Weibo and Twitter to keep my strength. I'm not having love problem I'm just sick of the people out there, they're freaking me out.

Since I was a kid, sometimes I beg my parents to got me dancing or instrumental lesson. But I don't have fate/chance on it and till now I don't really have those passion anymore. Maybe I'll just do what I wanna do right after I'm able to make it. Feel ashamed/confident-less now with nothing I can do about, I'm 20 year old, no more kid or teenage I am. Okay, ain't complaining about how worse my life. I just needed to wait for the right time to comes. Anyhow, just keep moving on alright.

PS : In advance, Happy Chinese New Year and GONG XI FATT CHAI !! Wishing you all a prosperity ( HUAT ARRR ) and healthy year ahead!! 

A night at Library

我赴约去了昨晚

认识了新朋友

整晚很开心 

是真的

就算是不出声的

听着他们说话

我的嘴角都不能避免的向上

所以君琪呀

你不用担心

你朋友都没有吓倒我

反而是很喜欢他们

我应该很久都没有试过这种感觉了

哈哈

可是笑太多 更容易醉吧?

回到家 

还以为我都没事

只是有点晕

可是躺在床上的时候

我不能忍了

头真的是好像要爆开来了

去了厕所两次

第一次 我醉了

抱着马桶 在厕所半晕半睡的坐着一个小时

还以为只有电视剧桥段会有的画面

竟然给我体验到了

哈哈

真的很不好受

可是呕了比较容易入睡

下午大概两点才起床

一次过补回之前的睡眠

又发了个梦

这梦是个结局

有了个了断

嗬

PS : 谢谢君琪，‘国栋’ 名字对吧? 哈哈 还有你们的朋友 

过客

人生就像是一段旅程

沿途中 遇到的每一个人 都是生命中的过客

有好也有坏

但我们都应该感激他们

因为他们使我们看清自己到底是谁

 而旅程中的每一件事与每一个美丽景色 

都有可能成为一生中难忘的风景

一路走来 我们无法猜测将是迎接什么样的风景 没有预兆目的地在哪

可是前进的脚步却始终不能停下

因为时间不允许我们在任何地方停留 

只有在前进中不断学会选择 学会体会 学会欣赏

Living at the mercy of pain and fear.

Song of the day : Linkin Park, Waiting for the end.




This is not the end, this is not the beginning
Just a voice like a riot rocking every revision
But you listen to the tone and the violent rhythm
Though the words sound steady,
something emptys within 'em
We say yeah with fists flying up in the air
Like we're holding onto something that's invisible there
Cuz we're living at the mercy of the pain and the fear
Until we dead it, forget it, let it all disappear
Waiting for the end to come
Wishing I had strength to stand
This is not what I has planned
It's out of my control.

Flying at the speed of light
Thoughts we're spinning in my head
So many things were left unsaid
It's hard to let you go

I know what it takes to move on
I know how it feels to lie
All I wanna do is trade this life for something new
Holding on to what I haven't got

Sitting in an empty room
Trying to forget the past
This was never meant to last
I wish it wasn't so

I know what it takes to move on
I know how it feels to lie
All I wanna do is trade this life for something new
Holding on to what I haven't got
Yo yo what was left when that fire was gone
I thought it felt right, but that right was wrong
All caught up in the eye of the storm
And trying to figure out what it's like moving on
And I don't even know what kind of things I said
My mouth kept moving and my mind went dead
So picking up the pieces now where to begin
The hardest part of ending is starting again

All I wanna do is trade this life for something new
Holding on to what I haven't got
This is not the end, this is not the beginning
Just a voice like a riot rocking every revision
But you listen to the tone and the violent rhythm
Though the words sound steady,
something emptys within 'em
We say yeah with fists flying up in the air
Like we're holding onto something that's invisible there
Cuz we're living at the mercy of the pain and the fear
Until we dead it, forget it, let it all disappear