Colorful/ Colorless

我想最近情绪是有点被牵动,时而情绪化,有点神经质, 这才是原本的我.

以前的我,在面对不开心时,只会想到用酒精来暂时逃避和释放.

可,近期我尝试了吸水烟.

第一次只为了好奇心, 原以为没第二次了,

原来只是骗自己,它其实蛮吸引着我,尤其是那水果香味.

可是下次我还会把它当成一种解压的方式吗?应该不会吧?

我先声明,我只是玩玩而已....很好玩? 对....-.-

这是新买的一本书, 比天堂更美好的地方,就在人间.

喜欢里面的内容,透过101则小故事,不断引导我脑袋去思考各种与个中含义.

所以才又回到书局去把它买下.

现在有三本书在等着我呐...

朋友在两个星期后要结婚了

想穿长裙出席,应该买新衣呢还是找找衣橱里有什么可以变一变的呢?

懊恼

要不要找工作好呢?

懊恼

星期日早上和家人在DANG WANGI 附近的一间KOPITIAM的早餐

不要看它外相,其实很好吃,也很多顾客!!!

还有其他好吃的呢!!!

姐妹,走!! 找一天我带你们去吃!!!

哭!!!

想看电影!!! BLACK SWAN!!! 我要看 =(

姐妹看了,还愿意陪我看吗? 嗬嗬

这个月开始很多演唱会 怎么这样啊

我要看ah mi 和 bruno mars也想看小猪,感受下他现场劲歌热舞的气氛 

通通只能等晚上做梦吧 @@

哈哈

来个乱的

新鞋漂亮吗?

PS : 雷公出现了,要闪!!!

From me and it's for you.

Okay, I've waited this moment for so long!!
First, I would like to say, ANGELA GAN, please pay fully attention to this post!!
I dedicate this post especially just for you.
I am sorry for not attending the birthday celebration.
And since I'd planned to make a video for you before your birthday
but things went not as smooth as it supposed to be.
And for some incident I delayed the video editing part.
Till the days after your birthday I decided to make it again.
It takes me two days to edit it and 2 days to upload it.
Like so hard, seriously! I mean the time waiting it to be uploaded was turn me out of patient.
ARGH! Babe! I did it for you! <3

*Here to mention first, although it's really late ( for one week ) sorry. =( I hope you like it, just as simple as it is, it is my little baby that I first time made for a friend, no any excellent editing skills but it's a sincere and belated gift for you.* 

Before you watch it, put your headphone/earphone on. =)




PS : Thanks to those who involved in this video. :) Got to sleep!! It's 2.04 am now!! 

Randomly.

20/2/20

Attend wedding dinner at Bukit Jalil.

Nothing much. That day wasn't really into the mood and randomly picked the clothes for it.

Suprisingly I got myself a new look overall of the outfit. 

Keep it up. 

Dinner was held in the ballroom.

Everyone was gathered together at uncle's house after the dinner

just to have a look to the new born baby girl, she's pretty baby. =)

Feel so warm cos all the 'youngs' and 'olds' are there except another 3 cousins.

Yeah, I should keep this up, everything I mean. CHEERS!

Secret

*KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK*

累惨了. 昨天去当临时演员,我的妈呀, 脚皮都被磨破了, 现在都贴着plaster.
还能说什么, 不能抱怨啊, 就为了那几十块, 还有那一点点经验.

最近你好吗 他...好吗？ 我好吗？
大家好吗？

新年期间我很快乐, 家里很热闹, 都变成赌城了,朋友都常常出现在我家, 聚在一块.
不然就是和他们出去, 所以都没时间上来.

记得有个星期一吧, 和家人去马六甲一趟,回来还食物中毒, 上吐下泻不停, 搞得我怕怕.
但好处是可以瘦身, 至少去到学校, 大家都问我怎么瘦了, 嗬嗬.

在你很忙很忙, 把自己的时间填的满满, 让自己投入快乐的心情的时候, 我发现, 在停下脚步的那一刻, 那个空虚感也许还是会来临, 记忆会从脑海里溢出, 虽然不像当初那么深, 可是始终还有个烙印在那, 提醒你是谁留下的. 我停下来一会儿, 在想最近你好吗...

我是女生, 所以总在想女生很脆弱, 不要伤害我们. 但感情问题总是个懊恼的问题, 请问男生也会像女生那样脆弱般吗？你们有像女生那样, 久久不能抽离吗？说爱, 是有多爱啊？
朋友啊, 你的心在淌血, 你的眼在流泪, 我相信时间过了, 你就会慢慢愈合. 我明白不容易, 因为我领悟了, 但这段时间我们都会一直在一起, 就让我们疯狂的度过吧, 像从前那样.

看了电影, 听了音乐, 读了文章
这些都是牵引着我的心的毒药, 上了隐, 对它既爱也恨.
唯一能够把自己从中回到正轨就要看我自己的造化了.

我自己有个‘秘密花园’, 那是个没有人知道的地方, 我唯一能真正抒写心情, 不开心时候的小小地方. 你呢？你有个秘密花园吗？

100211

你见，或者不见我

我就在那里

不悲不喜

你念，或者不念我

情就在那里

不来不去

你爱，或者不爱我

爱就在那里

不增不减

你跟，或者不跟我

我的手就在你手里

不舍不弃

来我的怀里

或者 让我住进你的心里

默然 相爱

寂静 欢喜 


这是非诚勿扰2里小女孩念给即将离开人间的爸爸李香山的一首诗,那个画面特别感动 ♥

原来这首诗是一个三百年前诗人作的一首诗, 仓央嘉措-《见与不见》
而片尾曲《最好不相见》也改编自他的《十诫诗》





《最好不相见》
曲：栾树 词：仓央嘉措 演唱：李漠

最好不相见，便可不相恋。

最好不相知，便可不相思。

最好不相伴，便可不相欠。

最好不相惜，便可不相忆。

最好不相爱，便可不相弃。

最好不相对，便可不相会。

最好不相误，便可不相负。

最好不相许，便可不相续。

但曾相见便相知，相见何如不见时。

安得与君相诀绝，免教生死作相思。

最好不相见，便可不相恋。

最好不相知，便可不相思。

最好不相伴，便可不相欠。

最好不相惜，便可不相忆。

最好不相依，便可不相偎。

最好不相遇，便可不相聚。

Music

Awww I'm listening to Christina Perri and Late Night Alumni's song lately.
Their song are going through this Chinese New Year with me, no Dong Dong Qiang!!
Escpecially Late Night Alumni's song are so peacefully, I love it!
It wont make me feel depress or hype up, it makes me stay calm.

Christina Perri. I read her bio. I find her is special in some way.
Go read it.  Christina Perri's Bio

The latest single of Late Night Alumni, It's not happening.
You'll be enjoying listen to them. Well, at least for me, it does.

But I'm gonna show Jar of Heart by Christina Perri. 

I found this song through facebook and I love it after listen to it.

Perri feels that "Jar of Hearts" has connected because, "on a basic level, everyone has had this experience with a person who broke their heart. I'm just telling my story in a very real and direct way. This kind of slapped the crap out of everyone's hearts.' - Christina Perri.

PS : Happy Chinese New Year Eve.